Rescuing myself

Today – in fact – recently, I am so swamped and stressed.

So for the past 2 hours, I did nothing. Nothing at all. Except for my favourite reruns of HIMYM and Suze Orman. : )

My life could have been very dandy and easy and breezy – but because I wanted a fabulous, exciting, interesting and unique life – I have accumulated so much crap in my life.

So I am trying very hard to crawl out of this. I guess I haven’t been pushing hard enough on this – and I have already been working so so hard.

And yesterday I broke down again. I am so so tired of doing everything alone. Being the “independent” girl. I am so tired of constantly being in a long distance relationship – because I never get the support that I need! :’( I think I cant. I am so so soooo tired. I just want to be married and happily settled down.


Argh – I hate marriage thoughts. I still remember the good old days that I have married thoughts whenever it is examination period! :P Yes yes – somehow strangely I seek solitude in marriage.

Strange huh.

Many many good things happened recently.

I feel that I am closer to finding my “the one”.
And entered in a commercial property – and I’ve officially hit my DREAM number! So I will stop now. I am happy with my cashflow.

However, my life is still in a mess – and needs to be fixed. Badly and urgently.
- VM
o **I need to settle the immediate issues of 5VM from 60SR
o Sell off van
o Sell off MVM – which are making my house look like a warehouse : (
o Sell off the other ones
- **Settle things with the bankers – to get the best loan

The 2 urgent things are with **.

I hate it that I will be away for 2 weeks in the States – which is so so far away :’( ARGH!

Ok I have 2 days more. Don’t give up!!! Grab hold of the chance! Ls is not giving up – neither should you!