Writing

They say: Writing is another tool to sharpen your mental saw.

I guess this is why I really do enjoy writing.


It is so therauptic.

I dont know why... I am feeling more and more uncomfortable about my love life.


Everything is going great. But yet the uneasiness lingers...

I searched within.


And wondered... is the problem - me - all along?

No wonder everyone else is able to have perfect relationships except myself.


The problem is me.


I have always been indecisive with relationships.


I want to change.

The current potential seems to be so so so perfect. The more perfect it is...the more afraid I am..

We have been spending so much time together.. we have been communicating so much.


When we are doing so, I feel this incredible sensation of sweetness...I felt warmth, and all the emotions I havent felt in a long long time...


However, at times, I find myself fighting for air...for space.


Now, what is wrong with me?!?!?


I dont want to feel this way!


I really dont know.


Then I start thinking of reasons why this relationship would not work. And all these thoughts are driving me crazy!




You are right. I need to be with a man whom I can respect and who I feel that I want to follow. It can never be the other way around.



I guess communication is still the key.


So now, how do I put all these stupid thoughts in a way that it is more digestable?



Another reason could be because I have yet let go of the past... Sigh..

Frowns!!!

MAKE UP YOUR MIND, WOMAN!
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Here I am, approaching the yearly increment of my age.


I cant help thinking of getting something to reward myself.


At the same time, I am wondering if I really deserve it?


I should be investing the $$ instead?

Or we should see how much is left over from the shophouse purchase - if that is even possible at all! I really hope I get support from the bank! (On this note - I so need a raise - again - in order to get enough credit from the bank!)



If I manage to get that - it will be FABULOUS!!

Should I proceed to sell Simsville? - not sure - because all the hype about the development of Paya Lebar hub! Maybe I should just try to hit for a high number - then all will be great!


Everyone is predicting slowdown in the market in 2012/2013. Hmm.... Looks like I really need a crystal ball!


At the same time, I really do need to find a long term (at least 6 months out) solution for VM!!! Brainstorming time!!