Yet another engagement news

I guess I am of age where everyone already are starting to get hitched so fast that I cant keep up!


So today, I just got news from the lovely German couple - my dive buddies, are now engaged.


I can't help but look at myself.....in disgust.


I feel like saying to myself - WHAT E **** IS WRONG WITH YOU?!

Why is everyone getting hitched but not yourself?




Yesterday, he smoked again.

He was nice enough to brush his teeth immediately after. Wash his hand. And rinse his mouth with mouth rinse.

But you know, non-smokers can ALWAYS smell smoke - just because we are more sensitive to that smell. There is no running away!

So that disgusted me.

Why must he be a smoker? Heavens- are you playing a joke on me?!?

Then.... at my moment of weakness...I thought about my plan "B"..... I dont feel that I am deserving. Until I was sure that he is actually my plan A.

This is not a good side of me. :(


I was watching the movie - "Into the wild" yesterday, and I thought to myself- I need and want to be more honest. Face my ugly thoughts, and I can tackle them and cleanse myself off them!